"Do you think that you love me? Cause I do I do Do you want that forever? Cause I do I do" (Dashboard Confessional)

Oh dear love of mine,


People just don't understand.
Your friend is telling me to drop you. To leave you be.
Because he feels bad for her.
You know I kind of do too...but you're the one making the decisions to deceive her.
I am simply a girl whose in love with you..a girl who wants to be with you
make you happy.

But yet I'm the one people are blaming.

I feel like you care so much at certain times.
Then other times I feel like you really could care less.

I feel like you could just let me go so easy without thinking twice.

"You don't have to wait"

That's what you're always telling me.

I feel as if that's something you would only tell me once...unless you want this to be done....
But you just can't do it...

He told me "I think he just wants freedom, and right now that's what you are".
is that true....?

Do I simply represent freedom to you?
Or am i someone you care about and could see yourself in a relationship with?

"Don't lead him on"
What am I leading you onto?
You're the one dragging me around basically by my hair.

I'm just trying to love you.
Give you someone that appreciates you...
after all that's what you said you wanted...
Its just a matter of taking it and holding onto it.

I know there is more than lust to this. I can feel it..
I can feel it in your kiss
In your touch
In your glances at me
Just in the way you say hello to me..

Everything. I can feel the spark.. the connection...
for all of this to be fake means your a very good actor..

It is also something that would make me
H
A
T
E
You.

Please im begging you with every ounce of strength I have
Please please don't let me down..

I don't know how i'd handle it...
I'd be so lost...so hurt...so alone....

Sincerely, 

The girl dying to love you