I give up.
I give up everything.
I give up the idea you'll ever love me.
I give up the things we planned to do.
I give up hope.
I give up love.
I give up the little joy I have in life anymore.
I just feel so hurt right now.
The amazing night we had together....
until she called.
Boy I've never seen you move so fast.
And then to run in there and tell me
"you can't be in my car! she might be coming here!"
you were my ride home....
What would you have done if someone wouldn't have been able to take me home?
You tell her your not lying, and your not doing anything wrong.
Standing there, hearing you say it is like a stab straight through the stomach.
I couldn't take it...
I didn't want to say bye i just wanted to go to leave far far far far away.
imbreakingdown.
intotinypieces the walls are closing in.....
I feel worthless.
NO one should feel this way.
I need to let you go....but you make it so hard.
In my mind I know I just need to move on and leave you to your life.
But part of me knows you'll just suck me back in as soon as your life is all straight.
I feel like you need me when it's convenient for you.
We have such an amazing time together..
The things you say to me leave me with hope but last night it was different.
"I wish I could pause time" I said longing for him to stay with me
"Then we could be together forever," he told me gazing into my eyes.
I can't stop replaying that moment in my mind.
Does that mean we'll never be together? Unless we can pause time?
WHAT AM I TO YOU?
absolutely nothing.
how do i just let you be nothing to me?
I don't know, because right now you're really my everything...
How do you let your everything go?
How do you feel when your nothing to the person that means everything to you?
The bottom line is, it's me or her.
But I'm not going to make you choose. I'll let you do it yourself.
Simply let you lose me, i want to see if you'll actually let go of me so quickly...
sincerely,
the girl who is dying to love you <33
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