"Breathing is a Foreign Task and Thinking is Just too Much to Ask (Dashboard Confessional)

Oh dear love of mine,
It sure has been awhile since I've wrote to you. Not that that means that you're no
longer apart of my life. You're more of my life than anything now.

Something awful happen. I lost my other half. She left without notice.
And when it made me fall you weren't even there to catch me.
You found out the next day, and you should've seen your face..
Just like it hit you. that you aren't around me enough.

You of all people should have been there when i lost her.
You should have been at the funeral holding my hand. telling me it was okay.
Instead you left me to do it all alone.

We've talked i've told you how i feel a little more..
you even told me you were inlove with me..

But why do I still feel like our relationship will never flourish?
Why do i feel as if it'll be a flower in bloom for years to come?

I've realized nothing can rip you from her, as you even said you'll just apologize.
And just wait until she catches us again...just wait until she finds something..
and all of a sudden your apologizing..
It won't be like last time, I won't be so understanding..
Honestly I'll probably cry my eyes out right infront of you..

I've told you ALMOST how unhappy I am. You really have no idea though.
How it feels to be second best to the person that you care about the most.
Everyone my age is so immature, i talk to none of them at school.

I sit in the lunchroom alone thinking about you..
Wishing I could atleast think about how i'll see you after school..
but I wont...
that would make the school day so much more bearable.

Being at school doesn't take my mind from you at all if anything it makes it worse.
I can only think about you seeing all these happy couples walk around.
and i wonder why can't that be us?

You told me you'd take my to prom, i really hope thats not going to end
up being a broken promise.
You ruined my prom last year please don't do it again..

I just hope you know how much I love you and want you in my life.
I'd do anything to be with you right now and forever....

I am so deeply and desperatly in love with you <33

Sincerely,

 

the girl whose dying to love you