How can you be mad at me for having to go?
When you always have to go, you can NEVER stay.
No matter how good of a time we have together, you always have to go home.
I was lucky to have gotten to see you at all today.
Because I'm the one who makes all the effort, we were supposed to talk today too.
But guess who never got online...it wasn't me..
I was checking for your message all day, but it never came.
All day I was thinking,
Maybe she stayed home today
Maybe your asleep
Maybe she came home early
Or
Maybe she caught you.
and it was all over.
Who knows what she'd do.
Who knows what you would do.
Would you make up some excuse and get her to "forgive" you?
Would you own up to what your doing?
Gather the courage to do what YOU want to do?
Pretty sure I know what you'd do.
If I don't know by now then something would be wrong with me.
What I don't get is why I'm still here.
Still waiting
waiting to be with the one person I've wanted all along.
The one person I'll probably never have to hold and love.
But for some reason I keep coming back. You just make me so Happy.
But yet so sad.
More or less sad than anything.
But sometimes I think that little bit of happiness is worth all the sadness that it brings with it.
I don't know.
Just please don't be mad at me, I had to go.
Sometimes I think it's good for you to feel what I have to feel every time you say good bye.
Every time you say good bye and never look back at me.
The way it feels to see you drive off and leave me sitting in the dust.
Or even the way it feels when your about to spend time with me but first you have to call her....call her and lie about what your doing.
We both know this is wrong, but why please tell me why it feel so right.
Sincerely,
The girl dying to love you
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