"There Is A Secret That We Keep, I Won't Sleep If You Won't Sleep Because Tonight May Be The Last Chance We'll Be Given. We Are Compelled To Do What We Must Do. We Are Compelled To Do What We have Been Forbidden."(Dashboard Confessinoal)

Oh dear love of mine,

The time we get together is bittersweet, it's short but absoloutely amazing.
Staying up late, losing sleep just to hear your sweet voice.
It's just something I do because I really never know when I'll be able to talk to you next.
It's always a mystery. When will you be online?
When will you come up with a clever cover story so you can see me?
I make sure I make every effort possible to talk to you. It's just that when that same effort isn't returned

Sometimes I sit and wonder,
whats he doing right now?

Is he thinking about me?
About the life we could start together?
About the amazing conversations we've had?
About how all he has to do is take a little step and he'll have me forever?

Or

Is he thinking about how much it'll hurt her?
Thinking about how he likes doing whats forbidden?
Thinking about how he just wants to keep me on the side?

It's just so lonesome here.
 No one to talk to.
No one to talk with.
No one at all.
No one but me and my music.
It's all that understands me anymore.

Besides you,
you understand me in every way possible.
But your never there to comfort me through my time of need.

It's just that I miss you.
Not matter what you do to hurt me, I always find myself missing you.
Just wanting you next to me.
Just wanting you to talk to.
Just wanting you to love me.

But what i really don't get is how I can miss someone I've never even spent a night with.

Really there is nothing to miss, because there was never anything there.
Just please, before I tell myself I'm missing out on nothing and move on please tell me what your
planning on doing.
I just want to know.
Either way I don't care I just can't stand being drug along anymore.

Sincerely,

The girl dying to love you